I feel like I'm running out of steam. I'm tired, rundown, I have no energy. This is due in small part to the fact that my job never gives me two days off in a row. Like once every two months I'll get 2 consecutive days offmaybe. (it's one of those work 2 to 4 days in a row then get 1 day off instead of 5 days on 2 days off jobs... although sometimes I still work 5 or 6 days in a row and still get only 1 day) But that's not really the main cause, the main cause is my lifestyle, which I've covered in this thread and feel no need to rehash. But it's gotten out of hand, and I feel like it's going to have to come to an end soon. I feel dead. No energy, drained, my entire body hurts for no reason, my stomach feels like it's burning much of the time, I always feel slightly queasy, and I'm just run-down. On my days off all I can do is sleep. I'll sleep for a good 14 hours straight if I don't have to get up and go to work. I don't spend time with my friends much any more. I can barely even muster the energy to work on mixing and mastering my second album which I finished recording months ago. In fact, I'm still working on distributing the first album just because I was too lazy to give it out to people fast enough so it's just sitting, which I put far too much work into to let it sit like that. (Praetor, you should get yours soon) Work that involves sitting in a chair in front of a computer, which is a real testament to how far I've fallen in the last three months or so... if any of you have ever heard my music you'll know that recording it would be quite a work out. Now I can barely process the tracks I've already recorded. And I want to record another one in the next couple of months, so I'm either going to have to quit drinking, or slow down at least, or increase my pot intake. (I smoke only high quality stuff that doesn't give the stereotypical lazy-hippy quality that most of the media associates with pot use... it adds to my energy levels. Mostly sativas, if you're having trouble believing me there). I know that this would only further add to my mental detachment, but I don't feel like I'm at a point where I'm ready to make big changes, and although increasing my pot would detach me further, it would at least add to my physical energy levels and allow me to complete the tasks at hand. And who knows, maybe smoking more pot will help reduce the urge to drink. (It did help me quit smoking K2, which I haven't touched in over a year and a half and never will again)