When I look back on who I was back in late 2003-2004, I can't help but feel down.
I may have had less taste back then, been stupider and more conceited/legalistic, but I used to believe in something back then; I had belief in a loving God who cared about me; I had a firm moral code on which to base my life upon; I had optimism for the future.
Now I have absolutely nothing to believe in -- nothing but doubt and fear and anger.