That's not true. Everybody feels that way at a time, at least I did once, but it will get better. Things will fall into place. I know it's hard for you to get a job, but if I were you I would focus all of your energy on that. It would save your life. Any job you can find. I'm not underselling how difficult it will be or saying it's your fault you don't already have one, I'm just saying that should be your number one goal for a variety of reasons. The first one is obvious, it would help your family. But also it would help with the inner struggles you are having. You have a job, you'll feel better about yourself. You'll get comfortable around the people you work with, you will inevitably make friends with at least some of your coworkers. These new friends and your improved sense of self worth at having a job will boost your overall confidence. Trust me my friend, getting a job will start a landslide of improvement for you. (once again, not criticizing you for not already having one.)