I don't know how much longer I will have a home. My dad has never been able to stand me with my problems and only kept me around because of my mom. Now my mom has done nothing but scream at me for the last two weeks. Any time I disagree with her over anything she sees it as a personal attack and I am not a very likable person. All I do is add to the huge amount of stress she already has since I am really bad at telling when someone has finished speaking and when they are just taking a breath. She says I am a horrible person who is trying to control her because I make that mistake all the time when we are trying to talk. I have tried to explain it to her but she just screams at me that I never let her finished talking. I have tried to avoid talking to her, but she takes that as a personal attack too. I am shaking like a leaf right now.

She is just fed up with me and I can't blame her, I am a horrible person who can't find a job.

Everyone I know would be better off if I had never been born. I can't even talk to my own mother right, I am huge screw up.

If I vanish from this site it will either be because you has finally gotten tired of me or I got up the guts to end things once and for all. There is no other way out at this point. I have been trying for years to change but I am just too bad of a person to change. The only thing left to do is end things. I just need to get the guts to do it.

Sorry to post suck down news here but all of my friends have moved on and my family hates my guts because I am one of the worst people who ever lived, so I have nowhere else to go.

Sorry.