Possessed said:

I'm an alcoholic, a drug (depending on who you ask) addict, borderline anorexic (comes and goes, I'm not really that skinny though but it's probably because my metabolism is slow because I go through spells of eating normally then for weeks I'll barely eat), my grandpa is dying on hospice of a brain tumor, my grandma, his wife, will probably die of MS soon after, I don't even know where my mom lives and whether or not she cares about me is highly debatable, I struggle with suicidal thoughts, not that I would ever act on them because it would destroy my dad who is a great dude who truly deserves no more heartbreak, but I'm tired of thinking about it all the time. HELP ME. Nah just kidding, I know nobody here can help with that stuff, I just wanted to vent about it real quick. I feel a little better listing it all out like that.

Alcohol is a serious problem that can really interfere with a person's emotional wellbeing when used in excess. Your appetite issues could be related to your pot usage, which can often reduces hunger. To me it sounds like you use these substances to escape facing your many challenges. I am sorry you are going through so much. I recommend you seek real help. Instead of using alcohol and marijuana to cope with your significant challenges, there are resources out there that can provide you with real escape. You can become engaged in activities that improve your self esteem, find support from others who may be going through similar challenges. I believe I misjudged you in something I said a few weeks ago, and I apologize for that. Please look for professional help, and reach out to others for support. Even something like Facebook can get you hooked up with others, like cancer or multiple sclerosis support groups. Hope things look up for you. Thinking about you. :)