TV's Frink said:

Why are you off your meds, if I might ask?

It's a very long story but I have several conditions some of which are linked to stress and my autisum. they give me movement disorders and cause things like headaches,and words to become jumbled in my head,along with confused mood swings I was on meds for them but then my doctor retired and I haven't found another in my area that takes medicaid so I am off my meds.

Normally I can cope(I didn't receave treatment for this problems for the first time until I was 20 so i grew up with it and most people,myself included just thought I was very stupid)but lately it has been bad(I think the stress of having my dad nearly die messed with my head)so words will turn into a jumble,I repeat myself and not know it,and some times I will write giberish that doesn't make sense to anyone(It's all english words but they will be out of order or put together in such a way that my meaning is not clear)but myself and I will not see it because it all made sense in my head.

Sorry for this long post,I have not had an attack this bad in a long time but I have been feeling bad. One other problem is that I sometimes see personal attacks or threats where there are none and over react,sorry if I have done this. I say if not because I am trying to down play it but because I have no way of knowing when it happens if i am doing it or not. So if this has happened in this thread I am sorry. I am going to log off for now I think and give myself a chance to calm down and try to sort things out. Thanks for baring with me.