So many words swirling through my head right now, a lot I want to say but don't know how to really.
Yesterday my sister attested to "The State of Clear". (Google to learn.)
In Scientology, going Clear is a huge step, a milestone that can take much time and money to achieve. Me personally I didn't get any auditing on Dianetics so I have zero reality with erasing engrams. But I was a Class V Dianetics auditor and I do have some experience with the shit.
Clear is fucking hard to explain in one neat little paragraph. It's basically like this... All you guys reading this are Homo Sapiens. Dianetics Clears are Homo Novis. It's all part of the cult mindtrap. Implant the idea that cult followers are better people than normies. And the Suppressive Person label is another way of segregating the mutts from the poodles. All in all just bricks in the wall.
She looks so fucking happy doesn't she? Of course she's happy. Hubbard's definition of Happiness was basically "The overcoming of obstacles in achieving goals". She's been getting Dianetics auditing for probably 7 years now -- not constantly of course, she's a full-time staff member -- and boom! Mission accomplished.
The brother in me wants to hug and kiss her and tell her how proud I am.
Losing focus, hard to get the words from the mind/brain to the fingers properly.
They say Clears are rational. Is forced disconnection of families rational? Is the verbal psychological abuse in the daily life of staff and Sea Org members rational? Does it make perfect sense that Scientology turned my sister into a spy and had her look through my room for evidence of crimes against Scientology? Is it logical for staff members to sign legal documents promising to never speak ill of Scientology for the rest of their lives? Is this the Ideal Scene for a religion?
She sees this as her becoming more of herself. I see it as going deeper into the Lost Woods. Bitch is in real deep now, her bubble just got smaller.
I guess I sacrifice my own happiness in order to be free of the mind trap.