I must obey whatever the church says, and regard all outsiders who do not agree as always wrong. I want to believe that the Church's teachings on sex are wrong, but I can't. So I must conform to their logic, so that abortion can be stopped and I don't have to go to church angry every week because the priest always works in abortion to every homily, how bad the "world" is, and how they feel persecuted by that world. And then I encounter countless websites saying that the Humane Vitae is vindicated and how bad the pill is, and how the hell anyone could be pro-choice. Just type in Humane Vitae in google or youtube to know what I mean.