@generalfrievous:

I'm truly sorry you feel that way. Just realize that the Church has certain teachings for a reason, and as some things are not laid in stone, there are some things that may be changed in the future. For instance, the celibacy of the priesthood is only a discipline and not a doctrine or dogma, therefore it could be changed. The Church may also eventually loosen its teachings on abortion in certain situations, though abortion itself will never be permitted of course. The Church teaches that abortion is allowed in cases where the mother will lose her life if she tries to carry the baby to term since it is a choice between both of them losing their lives and just the unborn child. I think this is also applicable in cases where a mother may commit suicide if she is forced to deliver the baby alive, but abortion should always be a last resort and the mother should seek therapy/counselling of some kind first. Some people, including priests, have overly strict understandings of the rules of the Church and become like the Pharisees in the gospels who focused on the letter of the law and imposed all kinds of unnecessary restrictions on the other Jews.

Don't feel to disheartened by it all and feel free to ask questions in my Q&A thread (which I can bump for you if you don't want to go searching for it). I know you are a Catholic, but it might help to hear answers from a different perspective and I might be able to help you better understand certain Church teachings that are commonly misunderstood or improperly emphasized or under-emphasized. If you want, we can just have a discussion there and talk about the Catholic Church. You can complain and ask semi-rhetorical questions, and I can respond and go from there.