Over the last couple of years I've discovered I'm really good at casual relationships, I can juggle several at once, hold their interest for pretty much as long as I want most of the time, and (usually) gracefully drop the ones that grow stale or uninteresting. But I suck at potentially serious monogamous ones. Girls will get into me real quick, become totally smitten, and when I return interest and want to pursue something, it seems to fizzle in 3 to 6 months, then I have to go out and start new casual ones because I blew all the other ones off for that one.

Been hanging out with this one girl for a month now (yeah, that's not very long) who I really click with. The other day she admitted that she stopped answering messages from the other guys she had been seeing right after meeting me because they suddenly didn't seem worth wasting time on anymore, and hasn't fooled around with anyone since. I haven't admitted it to her yet, but I've totally been dodging messages from all the other women in my life since meeting her too.

I really dig this girl, she makes it all the way down my check list on desirable features and traits so far, and we seem to want all the same things in life, but this is the point where I feel like a hopeless high schooler and have no idea how I am suppose to act from here on. I feel like if I reach over the line and admit I want to date her exclusively, we'll probably have a really fun 3 or 4 months before we realize we are just smoking filter and have to toss the butt. If I keep it casual, I bet I could still be hanging out with her for another six months or more down the road, while not having to muck around with obligations and strong feelings.

Ugh, relationships suck. But I'm kind of getting burnt out on meaningless physical activity, and kind of want someone to work towards goals with. A solid partner in crime and shenanigans who is always there.