I'm not going to be able to drag him to England to get treatment, it's miles away.

He does sometimes get hungover but the scarey thing is he usually shows no signs of damage in the morning.

He shows no signs of remorse either (how can he) so it's not like I'm hooked on making up or anything.

It's come close to calling an end to things at times.

It's not easy as our financial situations are so intertwined and I'm not in the best of health most of the time and when he isn't drunk out of his skull he's the ideal partner in many ways.

Marriage vows stipulate the good times and the bad, the sickness and the health and though we may not be officially married in every practical sense we are so he'd have to go really off the rails for me to drag myself and my pills and potions into a hostel and declare myself homeless for a bit.

My previous partner forced our separation via serial infidelity and credit card fraud.

And even then I missed the silly sod like crazy afterwards.