Now these polar ice caps are at record low levels. It *has* to be connected to me. It can't not be. Everything bad in this world comes back to me. I wasn't able to land a job or get a life in college at 20, and the world has to suffer for it. This is a rock-solid connection in my mind. I really do feel personally responsible for these things.

I was up drinking beer and gin straight out of their bottles and went to sleep at 2 AM even though I knew I was going to wake up later then I should and that would was going to make me wake up depressed. Sure enough that's what happened and here I am again.

I am sitting here with my thumb up my ass because I am waiting for a reply to my internship interview. I've sent everyone involved follow-up emails. That's proper job application etiquette, right?

I would really rather know their decision sooner than later, though. That way I can know whether or not I need to look for work as a dishwasher. Who would possibly reject me for dishwashing? Retail work I can understand, because I am not a pretty white girl and I have no references or experience. But even an illiterate chimpanzee can wash dishes...