Tyrphanax said:

You also need to trust what they tell you to do and do it. Remember that medication is not a bad thing. This is a very, very serious thing and while we want to help you, I doubt any of us here are equipped to deal with it like a professional is.

I'd like to highlight this point. I have a friend who suffers from depression and won't take medication for it. He seems to think since it is something involving his head, taking medications to fix the problem is like admitting that he is crazy or that he has something horribly abnormal with his brain, or some crazy crap like that. The fact is, this is a medical problem like any other. Taking blood pressure medication, or heart medication, or indigestion tablets to help your body reach homeostasis doesn't make you a freak, it just means your body needs assistance in maintaining a healthy functional balance. It is no different in this case. It doesn't make you any less of a person, or less intelligent, or substandard. It is a medical condition like any other, and thanks to modern medicine, it can be treated. Admittedly, it is a little trickier to treat than many other issues are, which is why it is important you work closely with and communicate with your doctor or therapist, but it can be done. Unlike hypertension, your doctor can't just check your blood pressure and see that the treatment is working, you have to work with them, which is why finding one you can trust and who you feel like is really working to help you is important.