So it's pretty obvious that you're not so much socially awkward as you are severely, severely depressed. CP3S pretty much says it all, but I'd like to add some gravity:
Depression like you suffer from is a terminal thing. It will kill you eventually. So you need to get help. I saw something about counseling and psychiatrists up there, and I don't know how much therapy you're currently attending but something may be wrong in the process you're in if it's been awhile and you're not making any progress. Maybe you need to find a new therapist, or maybe you're (or they, sometimes there are bad ones) not taking it seriously enough and need to really throw yourself on the mercy of the system, or maybe you need medication or aren't taking the ones prescribed to you, or maybe you just need to redouble your efforts, I don't know.
Besides the depression, you clearly have a lot of anxiety (maybe just social anxiety, but probably more generalized) and intrusive thoughts judging by your social problems and your blaming things out of your control on your actions. Combined with the depression, this creates a cycle that keeps you depressed and thus they need to be treated as well. Bring these up to your therapist, they love those clinical designations.
Speaking as someone who has been through depression (albeit mild) and the system personally, and has seen many other people go through both, what you need to do is do your research and find a therapist who you can trust and form a connection with (keep looking until you find one) and then tell them everything, word-for-word, that you told us. Print it out and read it off to them if you have to. You also need to trust what they tell you to do and do it. Remember that medication is not a bad thing. This is a very, very serious thing and while we want to help you, I doubt any of us here are equipped to deal with it like a professional is.
Additionally, it is extremely important to remember that you are not the only one who feels this way. I'm willing to bet that everyone in the world suffers from varying degrees of depression at multiple points in their life. Even more important to remember is that it can be treated, and you can feel better. It may take awhile and it will take a lot of work, but, trust me, it will be one hundred percent worth it when you feel better.
But you need to do something, and it needs to be soon. Social interaction and girls can wait here (in fact, you'll find that both will be much easier when you're less depressed), because if this isn't dealt with, you will die. And while I can't speak for anyone else here, I know that I don't want you to die.