A completely lost and destroyed story

TheBoost's thread reminded me of something that I don't often think about. I was going to post this in that thread, but it doesn't really fit.

Alright so when I was a kid I wrote a short story about a man who was born with a genetic defect. That under certain circumstances he could not feel any emotional or physical pain. His other emotions were also subdued, not completely gone, during that time. So a few years later when I remembered it again I was going to sit down and complete it to hopefully get it published. I was devastated as I looked at the computer that once held my story to find it was gone. Deleted, not in the recycling bin, not to be found after hours of searching on that computer.

I know you're going to ask "why didn't I make a backup?" Well it's hard to explain but I couldn't make a digital backup. I wasn't allowed to. I could've printed it out, but that came with it's own problems... Again hard to explain. I could've rewrote the story, but I wrote that story at a very unique time in my life. Midway in the process of writing it I started to read a dictionary that we had. A big reason why I wanted to read that story again was to see my initial word choice evolving into more eloquent terms. I was also worried that I wouldn't remain true to the original. Which is why TheBoost's thread reminded me of it. Further I still held out hope that I could someday find it on that old computer. That hope died when it got damaged in transit due to a family member. Since then I haven't gotten up the drive to attempt writing it again. I don't know, maybe someday I might...