I've calmed down since yesterday and I wanted to come back here and say a few things. I first want to apologize for being so grouchy yesterday. I also want to apologize to Gaffer and *sigh* even Bing for getting on them so much for not liking Valentines day. I am sorry.

I would like to explain why I reacted the way I did to Xhonzi and Bkev. If it had been non-respected forum members calling me petty, I would have just ignored it. But it came from a respected forum member, Bkev. My feelings were hurt. You can argue that I shouldn't have let it get to me, but it did. I then asked why and got further disrespected by Xhonzi. This is not the first time I was shown disrespect by Xhonzi. I have always tried to treat him with respect. I admit I have not always succeeded , I do try. I do not know why he does not make the same effort to treat me with respect. IMO, from the way I originally reacted BKev by saying "excuse me?" , it should have told Xhonzi that I was annoyed by Bkev's statement and not taking it as a joke. What did he do? he poured salt on the wound. He basically stated that he agreed with Bkev and sort of joked about it and refused to explain why he felt that way about it. I was already in a bad mood and it was the last straw and I lost my temper. I admit I need to work on my temper. I know I suck this forum stuff. I know alot yesterday was my fault. I know that. I know I let alot of people and things get under my skin when I shouldn't. I will continue to try to work on my problems. I am not sure what I am going to do right now. I just wanted to come back and say a few things.