For the last time.

I sent a money REQUEST. Only by Ady accepting it can it be withdrawn from the account! I did not DEMAND anything. I wanted to get his attention because, at the time, I thought he was still ignoring me and not living up to his word that he would contact me right after Christmas. I was not expecting to actually go through with taking the money. Ady allowed it to be withdrawn and PayPal doesn't just arbitrarily take it like he said. The resulting negative balance was his own doing.

Even if Ady and I agreed to sweep this under the rug, where does that leave me? Exactly where I am and nobody here cares enough anyway. I am a joke to all of you. I really thought that I had some good things to offer this place, as well as the desire to help and encourage others.

I have accepted the fact that I will never, EVER have equal footing in this forum again. So why should I give a fuck since you don't? I am ridiculed and shit on at every turn, and NONE of you really knows how to treat other human beings. Even if I decided to let on about what I am dealing with in my personal life and told everyone what is going on at home, it WOULD NOT MEAN SHIT to ANY of you and you'd probably just laugh. I'm sure you'll laugh at this post so I don't even know why I try. I love Star Wars, but I sure as hell don't love what you people do to others. So what if it's just words typed on a forum. They have power. And speaking of power, it is apparent that anything I do or say doesn't matter because ady is always right in all of your eyes.