PSYCHO_DAYV, whatever your situation I only wish you the best (I did not appreciate somebody's comment about "karma" that seemed to be insinuating that the proper karmic "balance" to this situation is for you to actually get cancer). Even if you've perpetuated something shady with the forum members out of a place of desperation in your life, then if everything is set right I don't see why anyone should hold any animosity towards you. I certainly don't, and I was more than ready to donate to your cause.
I'm going to go to the off-topic section and talk about Star Wars for awhile.