Reading you both C3PX and Warbler, I think you'll never meet. If C3PX looks like taking the chance to learn any thing he can through discussion (and I'm sure he does), I feel Warb is on the opposite side: the words may sound positive, but inertia prevails and he closes the doors again and again. Kind of love & hate ping pong party with himself and his feelings.
If you could forget these letters...
My Mission Statement: Be a good person. Be fair, just and honorable. Follow the golden rule. Show Love, respect and mercy.
... And make that true, you would have won your challenge.
For now it mostly sounds like a dream, a good intention that you haven't managed to measure the effort it requires. That said, only the first step cost...
I think this thread is obviously a kind of request of attention anyway. It could be translated by "Do you think my opinions suck... Or do you think I would made a great president" ?... Or even: "Are you guys reading me ?".
You've got all wrong bud. Try not to watch OT.com for a month for instance, and see if it makes you feel better, or feel like shit... And please try stop thinking !
Sorry if I sound tough, I'm just trying to help you - true that C3PX makes a huge work with you in that way, you can trust me on that, only you just can't see it, and you mostly stay on the defensive like if people tried to have influence on you ! - But I can't put in that post such an effort he gives for you...
... WAKE UP !