ok,

i've replied to everyone that emailed me.

and i'll keep doing it as long as i have to..

look, i screwed up i know..

but you should have my phone number, and other

contact information now.. i'm sorry i had to put 'star wars'

on hold for real life... i know you guys that actually have lives

know how to balance it a lot better than i do..

there's been layoffs at my job, everyone is working twice as hard,

its been that way since january. i just had my first vacation this

year last week. i've been putting in overtime, and doing extra work,

to ensure that i have a job..

please realize, that no matter how badly i wish things had progressed

they didn't, and i couldn't really do anything about it.

i'm not trying to make anyone feel bad. but seriously, i deserve all

the hate. i'm just not good at keeping in touch, or being accessible.

i've been burned by so many people, and people that i thought were

friends SO many times, i've given up a lot of times too..

(you can skip this sickenly sweet part here) yeah, i met a girl,

an amazing one (no, she's not into star wars), maybe my first

date/girlfriend ever....it's a huge thing for me, and it's taking a

lot of time an effort, so what can say? maybe my priorities have

changed? [and it does take money of course]...

look, i said i will answer anybody, with any questions they have.

just pm me..

be seeing you