I remember high school, all the drama and craziness of those days really doesn't mean a lot anymore. I remember my first year at college, it was fun because all the jocks and popular guys and girls were no longer so popular and were learning for the first time that their popularity doesn't mean much in real life. I was never popular in high school, I probably fit pretty well into the loser catagory. I was never very popular with girls. And I have always had a hard time knowing how to act around them. I have always had a horrible time with eye contact. Even if it wasn't a girl I liked I would have a hard time not getting nervous. I am way past that now. I think a lot of guys have that problem and I think it is something most of us mature out of with very little trouble. Also once you get past the high school or college part of life, you might just find some girl who is extremely beautiful, and who finds you to be a really cool guy just for being the way you are. One who stares at you and listens in great interest everytime you talk about Star Wars or anime even though she could careless about them, but still loves to hear about them just because they are important to you. That is exactly what happened to me, and now I have been happily married for over a year.

It is funny looking back at those girls that sent my stomach into knots for weeks on end, the ones that made it hard for me to think of anything else. I have to laugh looking back. None of them matter anymore, just faces in year books gathering dust. It'll pass pal. Your life is just getting started, you're young and even though it hurts now just thinking of that girl, there are millions of others out there. Also, sounds like she is a pretty good friend? Friends are worth a lot, especially at your age. You might find she is worth a lot more as just friend than a girl friend. Relationships are not always friendship's best friend, this I also know from personal experience.