You may (or may not) have noticed that I haven't been around here for a couple of days. I've been having some REAL trouble with the in-laws. I'm talking no longer welcome in their home trouble. It's partly my fault - I realise now that I have serious depression and anger problems. Well, not so much an anger problem, but I really need to learn when to shut up and not let things get carried away. I think I'm gonna get some councelling. Unfortunately I can't get new in-laws as part of the deal.
Related 'I hates':
I hate my parents for the bad habits I learned from them (but I love them too and know that I really can only blame them to a certain extent and I am my own person and therefore responsible for my actions)
I hate other people not understanding depression and telling me to 'snap out of it'
I hate not being able to snap out of it
I hate North Dakota and *most* of it's people
I hate myself
I hate arguments
I hate shouting
I hate when I shout
I hate being out of my comfort zone
I hate that I am not as good at adapting to being outside of my comfort zone as I thought I was
I hate that I am expected to adapt in the first place
I hate when I piss someone off so much that they actually want to physically fight me
I hate people who want to fight
I hate that I never really had a chance of winning over my in-laws no matter how hard I tried
I hate that I didn't really try all that hard
I hate that I am not the husband (or man) that I want to be
I hate the concept of 'real man'
I hate being in a self-made mess that I have no idea how to fix
I hate that I can't go back in time
I hate that the only place I can really talk about it is here
I hate that you guys are all gonna think I'm nuts for posting this