I think I might be a misogynist (or at least have sexist views) and I don’t know what to do and hate that I can’t change. This is what feeling ostracized as a child and having little female role models can do. Why? Why? Why? I’m such a joke.
I am a worthless person who hates everyone who doesn’t share the same identity as me. When I start to get a bit better, I fuck it all up.
The first step in knowing you have a problem is admitting it , therefore I believe there is hope for you and you aren’t worthless . Keep trying , the more you try to get better, it becomes a habit . It’s like the parable of a certain artist who when asked how he got so good , he opened a closet and out spilled his hundreds of failures .