Connecting with people is hard. Especially because I dont really know who I am, and what I want from life. At the moment it feels like all I want is one other person to hang on to and spent my evenings with. Someone who is just as weird as me. Then again, that’d probably be a really shitty codependent and unhealty situation to be in. Like something the greeks would write a comedy about.
On the other hand, I’m stuck in almost precisely this situation except that I’m alone and that I feel unable to change that. Primarily due to the fact that I don’t know how to be “me” around other people. And that I feel completely out of place wherever I go. Anyways, I should probably go to bed now. (I should have probably done so before instead of writing this perveted excess of a diary entry on the internet, whatever, life is weird)