I’m really sorry Mike. I wish I could understand better. I am here for you if you need to talk. I know a short sentence isn’t likely to change the way you see your situation, but I’ve seen too many people who thought they had nothing left to live for rediscover the joy of life, for me to be able to accept that there’s nothing left for you. Your life still has value and there is still a future for you.

Please send me a PM if you think there’s anything I can do to help, even if it’s just to listen.