I’ve been really manic the past few days. I’m worried something horrible is gonna happen but I don’t even know what. I feel like people are mad at me, but when I ask they say I’m paranoid. Not having a therapist is really wearing me out. I feel like Sarah Conner in Terminator 2, like I have something important to say but nobody is listening. I’ve been so bad today I’m having thoughts of self harm. Everyone is getting all excited for new years, but I feel like everything is about to collapse.