I feel for all three of you. Spuffure, I’m glad you’re still doing treatment. I know some of this is beyond your control and I hope my comments don’t come off as overly critical, because that’s not my intent.
I’ve also never had sex and have voluntarily chosen to give that up, but it’s a lot more difficult to have that denied you against your will. But I can speak from experience in saying that there is a lot of joy to be found in life apart from sexual pleasure.