As someone who’s had the misfortune of being one of those losers who can’t get laid in their personal lives, I lament the fact that the term “incel” has become synonymous with “bitter misogynist virgin who blames women for all his problems”.

I only had sex once in my entire life (with a prostitute). Honestly I didn’t find much of a difference between sex with a prostitute and masturbating, and I did it in the hopes that this would open the doors for me to a sexually active life. It didn’t turn out to be so, and I’ve struggled my entire adult life to hook up with women.

The fact that I had to pay for that one time and have had the shittiest luck imaginable with women has really fucked with my head. Am I really so undesirable that paying for sex is my only real option?

However, I don’t hate any women nor do I blame them for not wanting me. I just feel this mix of frustration, anger and bitterness over never experiencing consensual sex with a woman who lusts after me as much as I lust after her. I really want to experience such reciprocity.