After getting out of an abusive friendship, I now realize just how lonely I was. I’ll never go back to him. He was evil. But now I feel like I don’t have anyone to talk to. I threw the few friends I had under the bus just to talk to this guy, and he absolutely destroyed me. Now I have nothing. Plus, I’m too afraid to talk to new people because now I have trust issues. I’ll never understand why he wanted to manipulate me so much. I gave him everything, and he treated me like garbage in return. On top of that, He was just pure evil. Once he committed pedophilia, thats when I was done. I can handle a lot, but I wont excuse such an evil crime. It’s been the same thing since I was in middle school. People don’t want to be my friend, they want to use me as a toy. Then when they get bored, they toss me aside like I was nothing. I don’t know if i’ll ever be able to trust anyone again…