Handman, those are clearly two different people.
Anyway, I wanna bitch about how hard it is to make any social connection irl and get a girlfriend. Dunno what to say about it, but there it is, that’s my bitching.
I don’t know if it’ll make you feel any better, but my first crush died a long slow painful death from a car accident when I was 13. That makes relationships hard for me, because most people, when they go on a date, want to make everything as overly happy as possible and pretend that nothing is wrong. Either that, or they get their dating advice from far too many rom-coms. You may be having a hard time getting a girlfriend, but look at the bright side. The only problem you’re facing in romance is just being alone. You don’t have to deal with both loneliness and trauma like I do on most days.