There has been a bright side to all this. After TRoS released, I realized that I loved the setting and lore of Star Wars too much to just give up on it entirely. And while I have no love for what Star Wars has turned into, I won’t let that spoil my enjoyment of what Star Wars used to be. So in the end, my rejection of the ST is what led to me delving back into the EU after so many years, and to me learning about fan preservations. Through both of these, I’ve started to enjoy Star Wars again, in smaller doses.

And it’s a huge relief to know that I was wrong back in 2015 after watching TFA. I thought I had changed too much, that I couldn’t enjoy Star Wars anymore and that it was no longer for me. I know now that that’s incorrect. I’m apathetic about modern Star Wars, but not about Star Wars as a whole.