But she’s never scared of losing her friends. She even abandons them at like three different occasions in the movie without a second thought. I don’t buy it.
Bruh. What? She abandons them precisely because she doesn’t want to put them in danger.
- She doesn’t want them to come along on her adventure because “It’s too dangerous”
- She doesn’t want Finn following her into the desert when she confronts Kylo for the same reason
- Yet again on Endor, does the same thing.
She is afraid of herself because she is worried about hurting her friends.
Crap, I forgot about Endor. That’s another one!
- Walking away as they’re entering Ochi’s ship for no reason. (She just had a feeling.)
- Leaving the Chewie Rescue Op to get the Dagger (because she had a feeling).
- Leaving them on the shore of Endor and taking the skimmer at high-tide (because she was impatient)
- Running away to Ahch-To (because, as she explicitly explains to Luke, she was scared of herself taking the Sith Throne, not because she wanted to protect her friends)
All of these are because she wants to put herself in danger instead of her friends. She also didn’t “just have a feeling” on Pasaana, she sensed Kylo approaching. Impatience on Endor? Nah, she knew Kylo was on the move and it was only a matter of time before he caught up to them. She did it to get the hell out of there before he did to protect them.
Running away to Ahch-To would make even more sense with your proposed change of her blasting Finn with lighting. She is afraid of herself because she could hurt her friends. She could have already killed Chewie previously if it weren’t for luck, and now has just proven that she could easily kill her friends in person.