Starkiller with total respect and sincerity I think you should reconsider how you think about yourself and making comparisons to other people, what you said earlier about viewing your friend as a best friend because he isn’t doing better than you sounds very negative. Apart from that I feel like I’m not getting the full context of the situation between your other “chad” friend, (which might be because you wouldn’t want to get into the details publicly and that’s fine) but you might want to mentally meet somewhere in the middle, maybe they went too far and bullied you, and maybe a comment made struck a nerve that made you feel a combination of jealous and insecure that runs deeper than the actual argument itself. At least you do have someone to talk to about these things who knows more about you personally that can be helpful, I just wouldn’t want you locked into this belief that you are fated to be “forever alone”.