Back to my earlier topic, what are my odds of getting a date loitering in a cafe? There’s no speed dating AFAICT for anyone under 25 and dating apps have done fuck all. You know the next time brother goes to a party, I think I should tag along with him to see if I can meet anyone there. Besides, I’ve never been to a college party, so it’d be something and interesting, and there’d be familiar faces so I’m not too alienated.

Every time I think about this it just makes me so sad. I feel so alone. This really does not mix well with my current overall stagnancy. I feel like my life is going nowhere. I’m almost done CEGEP and I don’t even have any decent film material to get into a university film program, so I have no clue what I’m gonna do. I also don’t even know where to begin to write something I can actually produce on my non-existent budget. So far the best I have is adapting Stubagful’s Class (which if I’m being honest I only kinda like).

I haven’t felt this low perhaps since the end of high school, but by that logic, university should shake things up and make it all good again. Not sure how I’ll last 'til then, though. School is out cuz of coronavirus and I’m just wasting away in front of my computer all day doing nothing productive. I’m not advancing my creative endeavors/career, and I’m certainly not getting a girlfriend (although soft quarantine is putting a bit of a damper on that for the moment).