I feel so lonely having never had a girlfriend. At my age most people are sexually active while I’ve never even kissed someone. It’s not like I just want a relationship to not feel left out, it’s that I want one anyways and everyone else having one makes it feel so much worse. I don’t get involved with incel communities since they’re a bunch of misogynistic fatalists (to varying degrees, but even r/incelswithouthate has a pinned thread for members who killed themselves, so I don’t feel at ease there). I always try to have a positive outlook on life, and while I do what I can to focus on other things for the time being, after a while you can’t help but let your thoughts drift back. It’s not really something you can indefinitely ignore. I’m alone and it hurts.
I can empathize. All too well.