Torturing yourself was a poor choice of words, but to add on to what warbler said it’s one thing if you just don’t think family life is for you, but why FORCE yourself to avoid having a family when God doesn’t require you to? (According to the Bible)

The only passage I can find in the new testament that even remotely suggests that you shouldn’t was not a commandment but just a suggestion and it had nothing to do with spiritual leadership but was merely advising that it would be easier to hide yourself from Romans who would kill you for being Christian if you were single.