Why?
Well why is what you’re doing instead better?
My short time as a step dad was the happiest time of my life, even if not nearly close to the most carefree time. God I miss having a family.
I was a stepdad once too , I completely understand how you feel , I feel the same way and wish I had been more mindful then and more attentive . It’s been ten years since my divorce and I still miss them .