Don’t worry about using the thread. That’s what it’s for. That being said, honestly I think you’re stuck in a rut of trying too hard. It’s not that your friends don’t like you, but like was said earlier people don’t like to go deep all the time. I keep it light with most of my friends most of the time, but that doesn’t mean I don’t care for them or that if they really needed me I wouldn’t be there. You’re trapped in a circle of needing validation that your friends are probably just exhausted of giving. Honestly think if you stopped seeking said validation you might actually start getting it because it won’t be so demanding for your friends to speak with you.
May the force be with you.