hello possessed. it’s pretty hard for me to give you any sort of advice since i’ve been feeling sort of the same way myself. not only that, but i’ve only been in one relationship in my life, so… yeah.
but i will tell you, that you’re a really nice guy, and that you don’t deserve any of that. i’ve always heard that time can cure anything, and it really can, so maybe try giving it time. and try to be strong now. we’ll be here for you. and, you know, i don’t think she is avoiding you at all, or that she doesn’t want to talk to you, or anything like that. if she was as good to you as you’re saying, i don’t think she’d be doing that to you now at all. maybe something has gotten in the way. probably, actually. then again, maybe not - but i am hoping for the best for you. and if she’s the best for you, then man i hope with all my heart that you guys get back together.
but… it is never good to be that emotionally dependent on anyone. ever. try to be rational man. yes, she’s perfect for you, but i am sure that there are other just as perfect girls out there. it’s pretty hard to accept that right now (or to even want to accept that), but often times it is true too. so, possessed, if it doesn’t work out between you and her, it will between you and someone else. have faith. be strong. and give it time.
possibly shitty advice incoming: all that said, i’m not one who gives up, so i think you should keep trying to reach her. again, i think that something got in the way and that that’s the reason why she didn’t answer yesterday or today. like you said, there’s an infinite number of logical things it could be. so try to reach her again, i remember when you said you guys broke up - and iirc, it wasn’t because she stopped loving you or didn’t want to be with you anymore because it wasn’t working out. and, honestly, i don’t think she ever will stop loving you. from my limited experience, that’s not how these things go.
and you’ll be happy again pal. i believe that. seek out joy in life, and maybe you might end up finding it, not centered around a person, like her. who knows. try to be happy with yourself.
we’re here for you, possessed. i’m here for you. things will work out. don’t do anything stupid, man. we care for you.
i wish you the best. and sorry if this was unhelpful or stupid, but i just want you to know that maybe your way will work out, and that if it doesn’t, there are other ways with other people, and that we will be here for you.