Church is usually alienating for me, but today was painfully so and I’m sinking into existential despair. There was a guest band selling CDs in the lobby, ignoring that Jesus would flip their table. Then there was a guest speaker (did the typical staff get lazy?) that preached that good people watch Fox News, don’t pay attention to “fake research,” though didn’t cite sources for his own “research,” and rambled about “true disciples” vs. “converts and cultural Christians whose kids and grandkids are going to hell.” The worst part is that my parents got super emotional listening to this man, and I feel like they’re about to take another sharp right turn if you know what I mean. I feel horribly trapped and scared.
Sounds like you need to find a new church.