My close friends know but there’s nothing anybody can do to help. You guys can relax though I would never kill myself after telling everybody or especially anybody that I wanted to. I mean it and I do want to and sometimes wish I had a way and sometimes have to vent it, but if I were to do it I would do it silently and unexpectedly. For the simple reason that otherwise whoever I was talking to would blame themselves or feel guilty for not being able to stop me and I would never want anyone to feel like it’s their fault or that they didn’t do enough.