I’m so overwhelmed with life I seriously feel like I can’t bear it. I so badly want to shut it off but I can’t. I can’t relax. I can’t sleep. I can’t eat. I can’t shut the thoughts off.
I’m 11 days without alcohol still but that isn’t even the problem. I don’t feel cravings or temptations to drink at all. It wouldn’t make me feel any better, my problems are with real life and it’s almost too much to bear. I’m sure the recent quitting of alcohol is making me feel overall worse since actually feeling so much is new but I don’t even care I don’t need a drink, I need my life back. I don’t want to keep living with this pain.
Man, I am sorry you are going through this brother. I am beyond proud of you for getting this far into your sobriety and I hope and pray that you are able to fight through the pain and emerge healthier on the other side. I know that practically I am not able to do much for you, but I am pulling for you, as are a lot of other people here.