Guess who still hasn’t filled out scholarship applications
Is it the application that frustrates you, or the stress if going to college and not knowing what you want out of it yet?
Yes.
I think you will figure it out, just take one step at a time.
what is good advice for one person, isn’t good advice for another, so i wish i could tell you something wise, but i think you are probably wise enough to sort it out (with some good input from those around you). I know for me it was important to just get it on with, and not postpone college. it took me till halfway through my sophmore year to get serious, and switch majors to something i was enthusiastic about, but for me it was important to just keep moving. But i have heard from others who took off a few years to work before starting college, and for them they swore that was the only way to go.
Like everything, there are hundreds of variables and you can drive yourself crazy. but you have to consider 1) is college right now going to create unbearable debt / what financial aid can i get 2) what am i good at, what do i want to be good at 3) will i regret this
Its always a good idea to start finding healthy ways to relieve stress. physical activity is a great way, i used to play ultimate frisbee when i was your age (or closer to it), and meditiation can be good too. this is a life skill. (and hey, applications usually love to hear about your life skillz!)