I don’t like using this thread since I have no emotions to speak of other than anger, but oh well.
Other than talking to the occasional cashier and stating the bare minimum necessary to people I work with, it’s been over three months since I’ve spoken to anyone outside of my family. I don’t even think I care very much, I’m just sure it isn’t healthy.
I didn’t plan on talking about the reasons for my long absence from the forum, but I will say that this hit home for me. This isn’t too far from where I was not too long ago. But I isolated myself from my family as well, only talking to them when it was absolutely necessary.
I thought the same at first - that the isolation didn’t bother me, to the point where I kind of embraced it. But eventually it caught up to me, and I isolated myself more and more to the point where if I didn’t work, I wouldn’t leave my apartment for days at a time.
I happened to really luck out and move in downstairs from two people who are now my closest friends that I see almost every day, but now and again I wonder where I’d be now if I had, say, been assigned to a different building, or rented somewhere else.
Not saying your situation is exactly the same or trying to tell you that you need to get help or meet people or anything like that, or that I changed and became a perfectly well adjusted person that doesn’t ever feel this way anymore, but humans are social creatures, even if we don’t want to be. I learned that the hard way. And your post reminded me so much of where I was two years ago that I felt like I had to let you know you’re not alone.
If you ever feel like you need someone to talk to, even if it’s just to vent about what a shit day you had at work, you can PM me anytime.