This isn’t related to emotion but I want to post this in a serious thread. I’ve been having an extremely difficult time remaining standing or even upright for longer than about 2 or 3 hours at a time for a while. I’m young, thin, and pretty well exercised and that’s not to say that I’m the portrait of good health, but that’s to say that there’s no easy explanation for this issue. It’s affecting my ability to do my job, which (obviously) concerns me.
Quick update on this for the nobody that cares, but I think that it’s just neurological and not an actual health problem, which I guess is a good thing.
The Person in Question
Not only that, but I’m glad to hear it.
But with that said, what do you mean it’s neurological and not a health problem? Sorry if I’m asking something too personal or specific, I’m just curious what the difference is, and if it can be treated.
I didn’t use neurological the right way. I meant that I think it’s in my head.
The Person in Question
That is a lot of standing. Most people have bad posture. Why do you think it’s in your head?
It isn’t the standing itself that’s the problem, it’s the being upright part that gets me, even if I’m sitting down. My reaction isn’t exhaustion, it’s a thing where I feel like I’m going to collapse, or sometimes a breathing problem where I think I’m suffocating, but I’m obviously not suffocating so it has to be in my head. I’ve had other issues ever since I was a teenager in high school that I’ve been told were in my head too, but this one is a little freaky since it’s actually affecting my physical capabilities.
The Person in Question
Remember earlier when I suggested you might have anxiety? Cuz anxiety is absolutely capable of producing such symptoms. As a matter of fact anxiety is pretty much capable of producing any symptom you can imagine if you truly believe you should be feeling it.
I do remember that, and that might be it. I’m usually more angry about things than nervous. I’ve also been very paranoid since I was about 16, which might be part of it.
The Person in Question
Paranoia goes hand in hand with it, and to a smaller degree so does irritation. In my experience.
It’s not irritation, it’s more of an overwhelming rage.
The Person in Question
Psychosomatic?
“What Orwell feared were those who would ban books. What Huxley feared was that there would be no reason to ban a book, for there would be no one who wanted to read one.”
Neil Postman, Amusing Ourselves to Death
Ultimately, a therapist or psychiatrist might be the best option for you, MFM. Anxiety sounds right, but the anger can often be part of a mood disorder. I don’t want to be too specific, as there is still so much that is unknown about your symptoms, but perhaps there is help for you if you seek it.
I’ve considered a psychiatrist, I think therapists are a little shifty, and I suspect that my parents want me to see one, but I’m too independent and past the age of them being able to do anything about it. They haven’t actually said anything like that but they say I’m “unreasonable”. The problem with a psychiatrist is that he’d try to push meds on me, which I’d hate to have to take.
The Person in Question
One of my favorite YouTube channels took down all of the videos I loved. Such a stupid thing to be depressed about.
“What Orwell feared were those who would ban books. What Huxley feared was that there would be no reason to ban a book, for there would be no one who wanted to read one.”
Neil Postman, Amusing Ourselves to Death
That is disappointing.
The Person in Question
One of my favorite YouTube channels took down all of the videos I loved. Such a stupid thing to be depressed about.
There’re stupider things to be depressed about (intergenerational D-list celebrity crushes, for one).
I was pretty depressed when I Youtuber that I knew deleted his channel. This was about seven years ago, and we actually interacted with each other a lot online. I did find him and reconnected with him just a year or two ago, though.
The Person in Question
The only YouTuber I care about (as in actually seeking it videos specifically made by him not just random videos here and there) is penguinz0/critical. Damn that dude makes me laugh. And because his format is so easy for him to make videos in he literally has close to 1000 videos I think, about tons of subjects. Basically his basic formats are either narrating over random videos he’s found, commentating over random (often bad but not always) video games as he’s playing them, dubbing over infomercials, and the occasional actual original content. Oddly enough even though he mainly just comments over stuff for hundreds and hundreds of videos it just never gets old and always makes me laugh.
It was a year ago today that my father fell in the kitchen, that eventually led to his death. 😦
I’m sorry man.
thanks, it is just on days like this, it is constantly in the back of my mind.
Hey, Warbler. Nothing I can say will make it better. Just know that we’re here for you.
Thanks, I appreciate it.
I don’t like using this thread since I have no emotions to speak of other than anger, but oh well.
Other than talking to the occasional cashier and stating the bare minimum necessary to people I work with, it’s been over three months since I’ve spoken to anyone outside of my family. I don’t even think I care very much, I’m just sure it isn’t healthy.
The Person in Question
I don’t like using this thread since I have no emotions to speak of other than anger, but oh well.
Other than talking to the occasional cashier and stating the bare minimum necessary to people I work with, it’s been over three months since I’ve spoken to anyone outside of my family. I don’t even think I care very much, I’m just sure it isn’t healthy.
I didn’t plan on talking about the reasons for my long absence from the forum, but I will say that this hit home for me. This isn’t too far from where I was not too long ago. But I isolated myself from my family as well, only talking to them when it was absolutely necessary.
I thought the same at first - that the isolation didn’t bother me, to the point where I kind of embraced it. But eventually it caught up to me, and I isolated myself more and more to the point where if I didn’t work, I wouldn’t leave my apartment for days at a time.
I happened to really luck out and move in downstairs from two people who are now my closest friends that I see almost every day, but now and again I wonder where I’d be now if I had, say, been assigned to a different building, or rented somewhere else.
Not saying your situation is exactly the same or trying to tell you that you need to get help or meet people or anything like that, or that I changed and became a perfectly well adjusted person that doesn’t ever feel this way anymore, but humans are social creatures, even if we don’t want to be. I learned that the hard way. And your post reminded me so much of where I was two years ago that I felt like I had to let you know you’re not alone.
If you ever feel like you need someone to talk to, even if it’s just to vent about what a shit day you had at work, you can PM me anytime.
I don’t like using this thread since I have no emotions to speak of other than anger, but oh well.
Other than talking to the occasional cashier and stating the bare minimum necessary to people I work with, it’s been over three months since I’ve spoken to anyone outside of my family. I don’t even think I care very much, I’m just sure it isn’t healthy.
I didn’t plan on talking about the reasons for my long absence from the forum, but I will say that this hit home for me. This isn’t too far from where I was not too long ago. But I isolated myself from my family as well, only talking to them when it was absolutely necessary.
I thought the same at first - that the isolation didn’t bother me, to the point where I kind of embraced it. But eventually it caught up to me, and I isolated myself more and more to the point where if I didn’t work, I wouldn’t leave my apartment for days at a time.
The isolation actually does bother me, but every time I interact with anyone beyond a superficial conversation they make me want to be sick. I can’t explain it, but to me the isolation is more of a lesser of two evils thing.
I happened to really luck out and move in downstairs from two people who are now my closest friends that I see almost every day, but now and again I wonder where I’d be now if I had, say, been assigned to a different building, or rented somewhere else.
I severed ties with all of my friends a little over a year ago because I thought they were up to something and I’m not capable of making new ones.
Not saying your situation is exactly the same or trying to tell you that you need to get help or meet people or anything like that, or that I changed and became a perfectly well adjusted person that doesn’t ever feel this way anymore, but humans are social creatures, even if we don’t want to be. I learned that the hard way. And your post reminded me so much of where I was two years ago that I felt like I had to let you know you’re not alone.
If you ever feel like you need someone to talk to, even if it’s just to vent about what a shit day you had at work, you can PM me anytime.
I do actually really appreciate this. It does mean a lot to me.
The Person in Question