I’ve got a number of chronic conditions but it’s the anticonvulsives that are the difficult one to balance.
Too little and I’m at risk of seizures and too much and I’m at risk of being being irratable and snappy (I work around vulnerable people so that’s the last thing I want).
A break would be very welcome (I’m up at six in the morning, do quite a bit of travelling and I’m unofficially on call out of hours).
It doesn’t help that the manager of the place I’m in secondment to is really not doing her job and our service which is successful and helping lots of people is at risk of being axed because she is a bit shy when it comes to filling in funding bid forms.
She seems more concerned with how she might redeploy me as one of her team rather than what is going to happen to the service users. I don’t do the job just to make money I specifically chose the job to help care providers. In any other context I would rather eat my own legs than work for this person directly.
Apnea is possible. Bruxism is certain. I’ve just forked out a large amount of money for a dental splint so I don’t grind down the remaining teeth in my head. Headaches are really something.