Doctor raised up the Abilify. My mother is more than a little concerned about Lemnos taking three different psychotropic drugs. He told me I can take more of the Klonopin, but frankly, it’s a Benzedrine, and I’m a little scared to. I’ve heard lots of addiction horror stories. I’m still on the Prozac as usual. Part of me just keeps saying “give me more until I feel better,” but part of me is scared that I’m too reliant on them or have too much faith (heh) in them. My dad just approached me, saying he’s sad to see me so miserable and my mother is deeply concerned about the drugs. The doctor is an odd guy, but he’s a professional MD, and my dad’s trusted him for longer than I’ve been alive. I’m just scared. My dad just sat down and said it hurts him so much to see me so miserable and mother is deeply worried about the medications. I hate hurting them almost more than I hate how much I hurt.
I hope I don’t monopolize this thread. God knows, there are other people here with problems.
A few things to consider … you haven’t been on the medication long enough to be life reliant on them. Maybe consider having your parents go with you to the doctor once. Maybe them knowing a bit more about why you’re being medically treated as you are will help them better understand and may be even bring them a little closer to you. It might bring them in to the fold to help you as they can. It is not your fault so you shouldn’t beat yourself up, it is counterproductive to your healing and future well being. Take it slow, stay steady, and be honest. Much support to you.
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