darthrush, please do not use marijuana at this time in your life, wait until you are in your late 20s for that if you still want to try it at that time, I assure you it really can fuck up/contribute greatly to fucking up your life if you end up liking it as much as I did when I was in high school. Its not harmless, it can mess up a developing brain, it can be addictive.
Get a hobby instead, a non weed hobby. Please don’t do what I did. Weed wont fill the void, but it can make the void a lot bigger.
I feel the same way. I personally never advise anyone that comes to me to self-medicate. It’s dangerous and could very well have permanent consequences in many areas of one’s life. Seeking assistance through medical outlets and their respective professionals is a far better way to get started on the path to clarity. My daughter took Taekwon-do classes and it really gave her some positive support. A good number of YMCA’s or YWCA’s may carry a program for free and it gives one the opportunity to connect with others your age who may well be feeling the same way.