Everyone keeps telling me this, and they’re right. It just so fucking hard. I’m spending a lot of time saying I want to get better, but I’m sure not spending much in action pushing to get better? And why? Because it’s too hard. That’s not fair of me to others. And I know that. But Christ, is it fucking hard, and even the smallest steps are hard. So this kick in the ass is probably necessary. I just wish I could make SOME progress. If I did, I’d see how it was possible and feel more hopeful. But enough of my pity party. And thanks, you guys. You’re good to have around to talk to, and hopefully I haven’t been driving everyone nuts with my whining about all of this.