So I was supposed to have an appointment with a new psychiatrist last week and his secretary made a clerical error and now I have to wait three more weeks. Fuck. I want more of the medication I’m on, and I don’t think it’s working very well. That’s not a good sign. Not good at all. I’m out with my friends right now, I should be having fun, and I feel like shit. This is bad. I’m overdosing on Matt Dillahunty videos. I feel like I’m numb or anxious. And at work I had to be a witness for loss prevention. It was scary, and made this even worse. I feel like hammered shit. It’s getting harder. I’m so sick of this endless fighting. Fuck.